I have to thanks one FB friend of mine, Susan Carland, for this realisation when she shared it in one of her FB updates a few months ago. I can’t remember the exact quote but the gist is that out of all the things in life, her children is the best reflection of her relationship with Allah. And masha Allah, as months rolled in this mothering experience of mine, I could definitely relate and appreciate her sharing better.
Just the other night, Zayd woke up in the middle of the night and doesn’t want to sleep back. He has not done this for quite a while and has been ‘sleeping through the night’ or ‘sttn’ in mummy’s lingo for a few months now and of course, his mummy is the happiest. And that one night, when I was so tired, and his dad was also so tired and he’s been back and forth back and forth jumping around the bed and I thought to myself ‘Why can’t he just sleep and give me some rest after all I have done for him during the day?!’ And at that moment a new thought crossed my mind – Astaghfirullah, this must how it’s been like when I was ‘misbehaving’ and being ungrateful to Allah.
Allah has done everything for me, protecting me from all sorts of harm, known and unknown to me. Allah has guided me when I was lost. Allah has provided for me food, shelter, love, and all things nice in life – and yet, I am still from time to time became ungrateful and ‘misbehaving’.
This thought made me realised that indeed, even when our child is testing our limits – it is still a huge blessing from Allah. Allah reminded us of our own behaviour towards Him through the actions of our child. We can choose to be mad at our child, and be angry at them, which resulted in angering Allah for Allah do not create a child for us so that we could be raging mad at them – or we could take that opportunity to reflect on our own relationship with Allah, practise patience, and keep on loving our child.
Alhamdulillah for this reminder. And to my baby boy, mummy is forever thankful to you for always making me reflect upon my relationship with Allah. Uhibbukafillah my boy 🙂